অমৃতা-র AS Level Poetry

Edexcel Poetry Anthology

Content

1.      Eat Me [Theme: Power, control, fetish, body politics. A woman is force-fed by her partner until she reclaims power in a violent reversal.]

2.      Chainsaw Versus the Pampas Grass [Theme: Masculinity, destruction, nature vs. nurture. The chainsaw represents male aggression trying to dominate the resilient femininity of pampas grass.]

3.     Material [Theme: Nostalgia, motherhood, loss of tradition. A daughter reflects on her mother’s handkerchief as a symbol of fading domestic customs.]

4.     History [Theme: Memory, trauma, personal vs. global events. A father reflects on 9/11 while watching his son play on a beach, contrasting innocence with horror.]

5.     An Easy Passage [Theme: Adolescence, transition, fleeting youth. A girl climbs into a house—a metaphor for moving from childhood into adulthood.]

6.     The Deliverer [Theme: Gender bias, cultural critique, global injustice. A woman adopts a girl child from India, exploring the brutality of abandoned daughters.]

7.     The Map Woman [Theme: Identity, memory, female experience. A woman bears a literal map of her hometown on her body—symbolizing how the past shapes our physical and emotional selves.]

8.     The Lammas Hireling [Theme: Guilt, folklore, transformation. A farmer’s hireling brings both prosperity and a haunting secret—blurring reality and myth.]

9.     TO My Nine-year-old Self [Theme: Memory, regret, childhood. The speaker nostalgically addresses her younger, freer self—mourning what age has taken.]

10.  A Minor Role [Theme: Illness, identity, performance. A woman reflects on her marginal existence while battling illness and playing social roles.]

11.    The Gun [Theme: Violence, empowerment, gender roles. The presence of a gun transforms domestic life—suggesting eroticism, power, and death.]

12.   The Furthest Distances I have Travelled [Theme: Travel, self-discovery, youth vs. stability. A traveler reminisces about backpacking, finding meaning not just in journeys, but in everyday life.]

13.   Giuseppe [Theme: War, complicity, morality. A soldier confesses to killing a mermaid during WWII, symbolizing dehumanization and guilt.]

14.   Out of the Bag [Theme: Childhood perception, medicine, myth. Heaney recalls thinking babies came out of the doctor’s bag—blending innocence and knowledge.]

15.   Effects [Theme: Loss, grief, working-class identity. A man contemplates his deceased mother’s life through her personal effects—small items, big emotions.]

16.  Genetics [Theme: Family, identity, marriage/divorce. The speaker explores her parents’ failed marriage through the metaphor of inherited hands.]

17.   From the Journal of a Disappointed Man [Theme: Masculinity, distance, irony. An observer watches workmen at a pier, reflecting on masculine identity and emotional detachment.]

18.  Look we have Coming to Dover [Theme: Immigration, identity, language play. A witty, poignant take on British identity from the eyes of immigrants navigating their new world.]

19.  Please Hold [Theme: Technology, frustration, modern life. A man trapped in an endless customer service loop—a satire on digital alienation and automation.]

20.  On Her Blindness [Theme: Disability, dignity, parent-child relationship. A son observes his blind mother’s pride and denial with tenderness and restraint.]

21.   Ode on a Garyson Perry Urn [Theme: Art, modernity, youth culture. A parody of Keats’ classic—examining chav culture on a decorative urn to ask what endures.]

 

 

Patience Agbabi

Eat Me

When I hit thirty, he brought me a cake,

three layers of icing, home-made,

a candle for each stone in weight.

The icing was white but the letters were pink,

they said, EAT ME . And I ate, did

what I was told. Didn’t even taste it.

Then he asked me to get up and walk

round the bed so he could watch my broad

belly wobble, hips judder like a juggernaut.

The bigger the better , he’d say, I like

big girls, soft girls, girls I can burrow inside

with multiple chins, masses of cellulite .

I was his Jacuzzi. But he was my cook,

my only pleasure the rush of fast food,

his pleasure, to watch me swell like forbidden fruit.

His breadfruit. His desert island after shipwreck.

Or a beached whale on a king-size bed

craving a wave. I was a tidal wave of flesh

too fat to leave, too fat to buy a pint of full-fat milk,

too fat to use fat as an emotional shield,

too fat to be called chubby, cuddly, big-built.

The day I hit thirty-nine, I allowed him to stroke

my globe of a cheek. His flesh, my flesh flowed.

He said, Open wide , poured olive oil down my throat.

Soon you’ll be forty ... he whispered, and how

could I not roll over on top. I rolled and he drowned

in my flesh. I drowned his dying sentence out.

I left him there for six hours that felt like a week.

His mouth slightly open, his eyes bulging with greed.

There was nothing else left in the house to eat.

 

Simon Armitage

Chainsaw Versus the Pampas Grass

It seemed an unlikely match. All winter unplugged,

grinding its teeth in a plastic sleeve, the chainsaw swung

nose-down from a hook in the darkroom

under the hatch in the floor. When offered the can

it knocked back a quarter-pint of engine oil

and juices ran from its joints and threads,

oozed across the guide-bar and the maker’s name,

into the dry links.

From the summerhouse, still holding one last gulp

of last year’s heat behind its double doors, and hung

with the weightless wreckage of wasps and flies,

moth-balled in spider’s wool…

from there, I trailed the day-glo orange power-line

the length of the lawn and the garden path,

fed it out like powder from a keg, then walked

back to the socket and flicked the switch, then walked again

and coupled the saw to the flex – clipped them together.

Then dropped the safety catch and gunned the trigger.

No gearing up or getting to speed, just an instant rage,

the rush of metal lashing out at air, connected to the main.

The chainsaw with its perfect disregard, its mood

to tangle with cloth, or jewellery, or hair.

The chainsaw with its bloody desire, its sweet tooth

for the flesh of the face and the bones underneath,

its grand plan to kick back against nail or knot

and rear up into the brain.

I let it flare, lifted it into the sun

and felt the hundred beats per second drumming in its heart,

and felt the drive-wheel gargle in its throat.

The pampas grass with its ludicrous feathers

and plumes. The pampas grass, taking the warmth and light

from cuttings and bulbs, sunning itself,

stealing the show with its footstools, cushions and tufts

and its twelve-foot spears.

This was the sledgehammer taken to crack the nut.

Probably all that was needed here was a good pull or shove

or a pitchfork to lever it out at its base.

Overkill. I touched the blur of the blade

against the nearmost tip of a reed – it didn’t exist.

I dabbed at a stalk that swooned, docked a couple of heads,

dismissed the top third of its canes with a sideways sweep

at shoulder height – this was a game.

I lifted the fringe of undergrowth, carved at the trunk –

plant-juice spat from the pipes and tubes

and dust flew out as I ripped into pockets of dark, secret warmth.

To clear a space to work

I raked whatever was severed or felled or torn

towards the dead zone under the outhouse wall, to be fired.

Then cut and raked, cut and raked, till what was left

was a flat stump the size of a manhole cover or barrel lid

that wouldn’t be dug with a spade or prized from the earth.

Wanting to finish things off I took up the saw

and drove it vertically downwards into the upper roots,

but the blade became choked with soil or fouled with weeds,

or what was sliced or split somehow closed and mended behind,

like cutting at water or air with a knife.

I poured barbecue fluid into the patch

and threw in a match – it flamed for a minute, smoked

for a minute more, and went out. I left it at that.

In the weeks that came new shoots like asparagus tips

sprang up from its nest and by June

it was riding high in its saddle, wearing a new crown.

Corn in Egypt. I looked on

from the upstairs window like the midday moon.

Back below stairs on its hook, the chainsaw seethed.

I left it a year, to work back through its man-made dreams,

to try to forget.

The seamless urge to persist was as far as it got.


 

Ros Barber

Material

My mother was the hanky queen

when hanky meant a thing of cloth,

not paper tissues bought in packs

from late-night garages and shops,

but things for waving out of trains

and mopping the corners of your grief:

when hankies were material

she’d have one, always, up her sleeve.

Tucked in the wrist of every cardi,

a mum’s embarrassment of lace

embroidered with a V for Viv,

spittled and scrubbed against my face.

And sometimes more than one fell out

as if she had a farm up there

where dried-up hankies fell in love

and mated, raising little squares.

She bought her own; I never did.

Hankies were presents from distant aunts

in boxed sets, with transparent covers

and script initials spelling ponce,

the naffest Christmas gift you’d get –

my brothers too, more often than not,

got male ones: serious, and grey,

and larger, like they had more snot.

It was hankies that closed department stores,

with headscarves, girdles, knitting wool

and trouser presses; homely props

you’d never find today in malls.

Hankies, which demanded irons,

and boiling to be purified

shuttered the doors of family stores

when those who used to buy them died.

And somehow, with the hanky’s loss,

greengrocer George with his dodgy foot

delivering veg from a Comma van

is history, and the friendly butcher

who’d slip an extra sausage in,

the fishmonger whose marble slab

of haddock smoked the colour of yolks

and parcelled rows of local crab

lay opposite the dancing school

where Mrs White, with painted talons,

taught us When You’re Smiling from

a stumbling, out of tune piano:

step-together, step-together, step-together,

point! The Annual Talent Show

when every mother, fencing tears,

would whip a hanky from their sleeve

and smudge the rouge from little dears.

Nostalgia only makes me old.

The innocence I want my brood

to cling on to like ten-bob notes

was killed in TV’s lassitude.

And it was me that turned it on

to buy some time to write this poem

and eat bought biscuits I would bake

if I’d commit to being home.

There’s never a hanky up my sleeve.

I raised neglected-looking kids,

the kind whose noses strangers clean.

What awkwardness in me forbids

me to keep tissues in my bag

when handy packs are 50p?

I miss material handkerchiefs,

their soft and hidden history.

 

But it isn’t mine. I’ll let it go.

My mother too, eventually,

who died not leaving handkerchiefs

but tissues and uncertainty:

and she would say, should I complain

of the scratchy and disposable,

that this is your material

to do with, daughter, what you will.


 


John Burnside

History

St Andrews: West Sands; September 2001

Today

as we flew the kites

– the sand spinning off in ribbons along the beach

and that gasoline smell from Leuchars gusting across

the golf links;

the tide far out

and quail-grey in the distance;

people

jogging, or stopping to watch

as the war planes cambered and turned

in the morning light – today

– with the news in my mind, and the muffled dread

of what may come –

I knelt down in the sand

with Lucas

gathering shells

and pebbles

finding evidence of life in all this

driftwork:

snail shells; shreds of razorfish;

smudges of weed and flesh on tideworn stone.

At times I think what makes us who we are

is neither kinship nor our given states

but something lost between the world we own

and what we dream about behind the names

on days like this

our lines raised in the wind

our bodies fixed and anchored to the shore

and though we are confined by property

what tethers us to gravity and light

has most to do with distance and the shapes

we find in water

reading from the book

of silt and tides

the rose or petrol blue

of jellyfish and sea anemone

combining with a child’s

first nakedness.

Sometimes I am dizzy with the fear

of losing everything – the sea, the sky,

all living creatures, forests, estuaries:

we trade so much to know the virtual

we scarcely register the drift and tug

of other bodies

scarcely apprehend

the moment as it happens: shifts of light

and weather

and the quiet, local forms

of history: the fish lodged in the tide

beyond the sands;

the long insomnia

of ornamental carp in public parks

captive and bright

and hung in their own

slow-burning

transitive gold;

jamjars of spawn

and sticklebacks

or goldfish carried home

from fairgrounds

to the hum of radio

but this is the problem: how to be alive

in all this gazed-upon and cherished world

and do no harm

a toddler on a beach

sifting wood and dried weed from the sand

and puzzled by the pattern on a shell

his parents on the dune slacks with a kite

plugged into the sky

all nerve and line

patient; afraid; but still, through everything

attentive to the irredeemable.

Julia Copus



 

An Easy Passage

Once she is halfway up there, crouched in her bikini

on the porch roof of her family’s house, trembling,

she knows that the one thing she must not do is to think

of the narrow windowsill, the sharp

drop of the stairwell; she must keep her mind

on the friend with whom she is half in love

and who is waiting for her on the blond

gravel somewhere beneath her, keep her mind

on her and on the fact of the open window,

the flimsy, hole-punched, aluminium lever

towards which in a moment she will reach

with the length of her whole body, leaning in

to the warm flank of the house. But first she

steadies herself, still crouching, the grains of the asphalt

hot beneath her toes and fingertips,

a square of petrified beach. Her tiny breasts

rest lightly on her thighs. – What can she know

of the way the world admits us less and less

the more we grow? For now both girls seem

lit, as if from within, their hair and the gold stud

earrings in the first one’s ears; for now the house exists

only for them, set back as it is from the long, grey

eye of the street, and far away from the mother

who does not trust her daughter with a key,

the workers about their business in the drab

electroplating factory over the road,

far too, most far, from the flush-faced secretary

who, with her head full of the evening class

she plans to take, or the trip of a lifetime, looks up now

from the stirring omens of the astrology column

at a girl – thirteen if she’s a day – standing

in next to nothing in the driveway opposite,

one hand flat against her stomach, one

shielding her eyes to gaze up at a pale calf,

a silver anklet and the five neat shimmering -

oyster -painted toenails of an outstretched foot

which catch the sunlight briefly like the

flash of armaments before

dropping gracefully into the shade of the house.

Tishani Doshi

The Deliverer

Our Lady of the Light Convent, Kerala

The sister here is telling my mother

How she came to collect children

Because they were crippled or dark or girls.

Found naked in the streets,

Covered in garbage, stuffed in bags,

Abandoned at their doorstep.

One of them was dug up by a dog,

Thinking the head barely poking above the ground

Was bone or wood, something to chew.

This is the one my mother will bring.

*

Milwaukee Airport, USA

The parents wait at the gates.

They are American so they know about ceremony

And tradition, about doing things right.

They haven’t seen or touched her yet.

Don’t know of her fetish for plucking hair off hands,

Or how her mother tried to bury her.

But they are crying.

We couldn’t stop crying , my mother said,

Feeling the strangeness of her empty arms.

*

This girl grows up on video tapes,

Sees how she’s passed from woman

To woman. She returns to twilight corners.

To the day of her birth,

How it happens in some desolate hut

Outside village boundaries

Where mothers go to squeeze out life,

Watch body slither out from body,

Feel for penis or no penis,

Toss the baby to the heap of others,

Trudge home to lie down for their men again.



 

Carol Ann Duffy

The Map-Woman

A woman’s skin was a map of the town

where she’d grown from a child.

When she went out, she covered it up

with a dress, with a shawl, with a hat,

with mitts or a muff, with leggings, trousers

or jeans, with an ankle-length cloak, hooded

and fingertip-sleeved. But – birthmark, tattoo –

the A-Z street-map grew, a precise second skin,

broad if she binged, thin when she slimmed,

a precis of where to end or go back or begin.

Over her breast was the heart of the town,

from the Market Square to the Picture House

by way of St Mary’s Church, a triangle

of alleys and streets and walks, her veins

like shadows below the lines of the map, the river

an artery snaking north to her neck. She knew

if you crossed the bridge at her nipple, took a left

and a right, you would come to the graves,

the grey-haired teachers of English and History,

the soldier boys, the Mayors and Councillors,

the beloved mothers and wives, the nuns and priests,

their bodies fading into the earth like old print

on a page. You could sit on a wooden bench

as a wedding pair ran, ringed, from the church,

confetti skittering over the marble stones,

the big bell hammering hail from the sky, and wonder

who you would marry and how and where and when

you would die; or find yourself in the coffee house

nearby, waiting for time to start, your tiny face

trapped in the window’s bottle-thick glass like a fly.

And who might you see, short-cutting through

the Grove to the Square – that line there, the edge

of a fingernail pressed on her flesh – in the rain,

leaving your empty cup, to hurry on after

calling their name? When she showered, the map

gleamed on her skin, blue-black ink from a nib.

She knew you could scoot down Greengate Street,

huddling close to the High House, the sensible shops,

the Swan Hotel, till you came to the Picture House,

sat in the musty dark watching the Beatles

run for a train or Dustin Hoffman screaming

Elaine! Elaine! Elaine! or the spacemen in 2001

floating to Strauss. She sponged, soaped, scrubbed;

the prison and hospital stamped on her back,

the park neat on her belly, her navel marking the spot

where the empty bandstand stood, the river again,

heading south, clear as an operation scar,

the war memorial facing the railway station

where trains sighed on the platforms, pining

for Glasgow, London, Liverpool. She knew

you could stand on the railway bridge, waving

goodbye to strangers who stared as you vanished

into the belching steam, tasting future time

on the tip of your tongue. She knew you could run

the back way home – there it was on her thigh –

taking the southern road then cutting off to the left,

the big houses anchored behind their calm green lawns,

the jewels of conkers falling down at your feet,

then duck and dive down Nelson and Churchill

and Kipling and Milton Way until you were home.

She didn’t live there now. She lived down south,

abroad, en route, up north, on a plane or train

or boat, on the road, in hotels, in the back of cabs,

on the phone; but the map was under her stockings,

under her gloves, under the soft silk scarf at her throat,

under her chiffon veil, a delicate braille. Her left knee

marked the grid of her own estate. When she knelt

she felt her father’s house pressing into the bone,

heard in her head the looped soundtrack of then –

a tennis ball repeatedly thumping a wall,

an ice-cream van crying and hurrying on, a snarl

of children’s shrieks from the overgrown land

where the houses ran out. The motorway groaned

just out of sight. She knew you could hitch

from Junction 13 and knew of a girl who had not

been seen since she did; had heard of a kid who’d run

across all six lanes for a dare before he was tossed

by a lorry into the air like a doll. But the motorway

was flowing away, was a roaring river of metal

and light, cheerio, au revoir, auf wiedersehen, ciao.

She stared in the mirror as she got dressed,

both arms raised over her head, the roads

for east and west running from shoulder

to wrist, the fuzz of woodland or countryside under

each arm. Only her face was clear, her fingers

smoothing in cream, her baby-blue eyes unsure

as they looked at themselves. But her body was certain,

an inch to the mile, knew every nook and cranny,

cul-de-sac, stile, back road, high road, low road,

one-way street of her past. There it all was, back

to front in the glass. She piled on linen, satin, silk,

leather, wool, perfume and mousse and went out.

She got in a limousine. The map perspired

under her clothes. She took a plane. The map seethed

on her flesh. She spoke in a foreign tongue.

The map translated everything back to herself.

She turned out the light and a lover’s hands

caressed the map in the dark from north to south,

lost tourists wandering here and there, all fingers

and thumbs, as their map flapped in the breeze.

So one day, wondering where to go next,

she went back, drove a car for a night and a day,

till the town appeared on her left, the stale cake

of the castle crumbled up on the hill; and she hired

a room with a view and soaked in the bath.

When it grew dark, she went out, thinking

she knew the place like the back of her hand,

but something was wrong. She got lost in arcades,

in streets with new names, in precincts

and walkways, and found that what was familiar

was only facade. Back in her hotel room, she stripped

and lay on the bed. As she slept, her skin sloughed

like a snake’s, the skin of her legs like stockings, silvery,

sheer, like the long gloves of the skin of her arms,

the papery camisole from her chest a perfect match

for the tissuey socks of the skin of her feet. Her sleep

peeled her, lifted a honeymoon thong from her groin,

a delicate bra of skin from her breasts, and all of it

patterned A to Z; a small cross where her parents’ skulls

grinned at the dark. Her new skin showed barely a mark.

She woke and spread out the map on the floor. What

was she looking for? Her skin was her own small ghost,

a shroud to be dead in, a newspaper for old news

to be read in, gift-wrapping, litter, a suicide letter.

She left it there, dressed, checked out, got in the car.

As she drove, the town in the morning sun glittered

behind her. She ate up the miles. Her skin itched,

like a rash, like a slow burn, felt stretched, as though

it belonged to someone else. Deep in the bone

old streets tunnelled and burrowed, hunting for home.

 


 

Ian Duhig

The Lammas Hireling

After the fair, I’d still a light heart

And a heavy purse, he struck so cheap.

And cattle doted on him: in his time

Mine only dropped heifers, fat as cream.

Yields doubled. I grew fond of company

That knew when to shut up. Then one night,

Disturbed from dreams of my dear late wife,

I hunted down her torn voice to his pale form.

Stock-still in the light from the dark lantern,

Stark-naked but for the fox-trap biting his ankle,

I knew him a warlock, a cow with leather horns.

To go into the hare gets you muckle sorrow,

The wisdom runs, muckle care. I levelled

And blew the small hour through his heart.

The moon came out. By its yellow witness

I saw him fur over like a stone mossing.

His lovely head thinned. His top lip gathered.

His eyes rose like bread. I carried him

In a sack that grew lighter at every step

And dropped him from a bridge. There was no

Splash. Now my herd’s elf-shot. I don’t dream

But spend my nights casting ball from half-crowns

And my days here. Bless me, Father, I have sinned.

It has been an hour since my last confession.

 


Helen Dunmore

To My Nine-Year-Old Self

You must forgive me. Don’t look so surprised,

perplexed, and eager to be gone,

balancing on your hands or on the tightrope.

You would rather run than walk, rather climb than run

rather leap from a height than anything.

I have spoiled this body we once shared.

Look at the scars, and watch the way I move,

careful of a bad back or a bruised foot.

Do you remember how, three minutes after waking

we’d jump straight out of the ground floor window

into the summer morning?

That dream we had, no doubt it’s as fresh in your mind

as the white paper to write it on.

We made a start, but something else came up –

a baby vole, or a bag of sherbet lemons –

and besides, that summer of ambition

created an ice-lolly factory, a wasp trap

and a den by the cesspit.

I’d like to say that we could be friends

but the truth is we have nothing in common

beyond a few shared years. I won’t keep you then.

Time to pick rosehips for tuppence a pound,

time to hide down scared lanes

from men in cars after girl-children,

or to lunge out over the water

on a rope that swings from that tree

long buried in housing –

but no, I shan’t cloud your morning. God knows

I have fears enough for us both –

I leave you in an ecstasy of concentration

slowly peeling a ripe scab from your knee

to taste it on your tongue.

 


UA Fanthorpe

A Minor Role

I’m best observed on stage,

Propping a spear, or making endless

Exits and entrances with my servant’s patter,

Yes, sir. O no, sir . If I get

These midget moments wrong, the monstrous fabric

Shrinks to unwanted sniggers.

But my heart’s in the unobtrusive,

The waiting-room roles: driving to hospitals,

Parking at hospitals. Holding hands under

Veteran magazines; making sense

Of consultants’ monologues; asking pointed

Questions politely; checking dosages,

Dates; getting on terms with receptionists;

Sustaining the background music of civility.

At home in the street you may see me

Walking fast in case anyone stops:

O, getting on, getting better my formula

For well-meant intrusiveness.

At home,

Thinking ahead: Bed? A good idea!

(Bed solves a lot); answer the phone,

Be wary what I say to it, but grateful always;

Contrive meals for a hunger-striker; track down

Whimsical soft-centred happy-all-the-way-through novels;

Find the cat (mysteriously reassuring);

Cancel things, tidy things; pretend all’s well,

Admit it’s not.

Learn to conjugate all the genres of misery:

Tears, torpor, boredom, lassitude, yearnings

For a simpler illness, like a broken leg.

Enduring ceremonial delays. Being referred

Somewhere else. Consultant’s holiday. Saying Thank you

For anything to everyone

Not the star part.

And who would want it? I jettison the spear,

The servant’s tray, the terrible drone of Chorus:

Yet to my thinking this act was ill-advised

It would have been better to die .[*] No it wouldn’t!

I am here to make you believe in life.

[*] Chorus: from Oedipus Rex , trans EF Watling

 


Vicki Feaver

The Gun

Bringing a gun into a house

changes it.

You lay it on the kitchen table,

stretched out like something dead

itself: the grainy polished wood stock

jutting over the edge,

the long metal barrel

casting a grey shadow

on the green-checked cloth.

At first it’s just practice:

perforating tins

dangling on orange string

from trees in the garden.

Then a rabbit shot

clean through the head.

Soon the fridge fills with creatures

that have run and flown.

Your hands reek of gun oil

and entrails. You trample

fur and feathers. There’s a spring

in your step; your eyes gleam

like when sex was fresh.

A gun brings a house alive.

I join in the cooking: jointing

and slicing, stirring and tasting –

excited as if the King of Death

had arrived to feast, stalking

out of winter woods,

his black mouth

sprouting golden crocuses.

 


Leontia Flynn

The Furthest Distances I’ve Travelled

Like many folk, when first I saddled a rucksack,

feeling its weight on my back –

the way my spine

curved under it like a meridian –

I thought: Yes. This is how

to live. On the beaten track, the sherpa pass, between Krakow

and Zagreb, or the Siberian white

cells of scattered airports,

it came clear as over a tannoy

that in restlessness, in anony

mity:

was some kind of destiny.

So whether it was the scare stories about Larium

– the threats of delirium

and baldness – that led me, not to a Western Union

wiring money with six words of Lithuanian,

but to this post office with a handful of bills

or a giro; and why, if I’m stuffing smalls

hastily into a holdall, I am less likely

to be catching a Greyhound from Madison to Milwaukee

than to be doing some overdue laundry

is really beyond me.

However,

when, during routine evictions, I discover

alien pants, cinema stubs, the throwaway

comment – on a Post-it – or a tiny stowaway

pressed flower amid bottom drawers,

I know these are my souvenirs

and, from these crushed valentines, this unravelled

sports sock, that the furthest distances I’ve travelled

have been those between people. And what survives

of holidaying briefly in their lives.

 

Roderick Ford

Giuseppe

My Uncle Giuseppe told me

that in Sicily in World War Two,

in the courtyard behind the aquarium,

where the bougainvillea grows so well,

the only captive mermaid in the world

was butchered on the dry and dusty ground

by a doctor, a fishmonger, and certain others.

She, it, had never learned to speak

because she was simple, or so they’d said.

But the priest who held one of her hands

while her throat was cut,

said she was only a fish, and fish can’t speak.

But she screamed like a woman in terrible fear.

And when they took a ripe golden roe

from her side, the doctor said

this was proof she was just a fish

and anyway an egg is not a child,

but refused when some was offered to him.

Then they put her head and her hands

in a box for burial

and someone tried to take her wedding ring,

but the others stopped him,

and the ring stayed put.

The rest they cooked and fed to the troops.

They said a large fish had been found on the beach.

Starvation forgives men many things,

my uncle, the aquarium keeper, said,

but couldn’t look me in the eye,

for which I thank God.

 


Seamus Heaney

Out of the Bag

1

All of us came in Doctor Kerlin’s bag.

He’d arrive with it, disappear to the room

And by the time he’d reappear to wash

Those nosy, rosy, big, soft hands of his

In the scullery basin, its lined insides

(The colour of a spaniel’s inside lug)

Were empty for all to see, the trap-sprung mouth

Unsnibbed and gaping wide. Then like a hypnotist

Unwinding us, he’d wind the instruments

Back into their lining, tie the cloth

Like an apron round itself,

Darken the door and leave

With the bag in his hand, a plump ark by the keel…

Until the next time came and in he’d come

In his fur-lined collar that was also spaniel-coloured

And go stooping up to the room again, a whiff

Of disinfectant, a Dutch interior gleam

Of waistcoat satin and highlights on the forceps.

Getting the water ready, that was next –

Not plumping hot, and not lukewarm, but soft,

Sud-luscious, saved for him from the rain-butt

And savoured by him afterwards, all thanks

Denied as he towelled hard and fast,

Then held his arms out suddenly behind him

To be squired and silk-lined into the camel coat.

At which point he once turned his eyes upon me,

Hyperborean, beyond-the-north-wind blue,

Two peepholes to the locked room I saw into

Every time his name was mentioned, skimmed

Milk and ice, swabbed porcelain, the white

And chill of tiles, steel hooks, chrome surgery tools

And blood dreeps in the sawdust where it thickened

At the foot of each cold wall. And overhead

The little, pendent, teat-hued infant parts

Strung neatly from a line up near the ceiling –

A toe, a foot and shin, an arm, a cock

A bit like the rosebud in his buttonhole.

2

Poeta doctus Peter Levi says

Sanctuaries of Asclepius (called asclepions )

Were the equivalent of hospitals

In ancient Greece. Or of shrines like Lourdes,

Says poeta doctus Graves. Or of the cure

By poetry that cannot be coerced,

Say I, who realized at Epidaurus

That the whole place was a sanatorium

With theatre and gymnasium and baths,

A site of incubation, where ‘incubation’

Was technical and ritual, meaning sleep

When epiphany occurred and you met the god…

Hatless, groggy, shadowing myself

As the thurifer I was in an open-air procession

In Lourdes in ’56

When I nearly fainted from the heat and fumes,

Again I nearly fainted as I bent

To pull a bunch of grass and hallucinated

Doctor Kerlin at the steamed-up glass

Of the scullery window, starting in to draw

With his large pink index finger dot-faced men

With button-spots in a straight line down their fronts

And women with dot breasts, giving them all

A set of droopy sausage-arms and legs

That soon began to run. And then as he dipped and laved

In the generous suds again, miraculum :

The baby bits all came together swimming

Into his soapy big hygienic hands

And I myself came to, blinded with sweat,

Blinking and shaky in the windless light.

3

Bits of the grass I pulled I posted off

To one going in to chemotherapy

And one who had come through. I didn’t want

To leave the place or link up with the others.

It was midday, mid-May, pre-tourist sunlight

In the precincts of the god,

The very site of the temple of Asclepius.

I wanted nothing more than to lie down

Under hogweed, under seeded grass

And to be visited in the very eye of the day

By Hygeia, his daughter, her name still clarifying

The haven of light she was, the undarkening door.

4

The room I came from and the rest of us all came from

Stays pure reality where I stand alone,

Standing the passage of time, and she’s asleep

In sheets put on for the doctor, wedding presents

That showed up again and again, bridal

And usual and useful at births and deaths.

Me at the bedside, incubating for real,

Peering, appearing to her as she closes

And opens her eyes, then lapses back

Into a faraway smile whose precinct of vision

I would enter every time, to assist and be asked

In that hoarsened whisper of triumph,

‘And what do you think

Of the new wee baby the doctor brought for us all

When I was asleep?’

 


Alan Jenkins

Effects

I held her hand, that was always scarred

From chopping, slicing, from the knives that lay in wait

In bowls of washing-up, that was raw,

The knuckles reddened, rough from scrubbing hard

At saucepan, frying pan, cup and plate

And giving love the only way she knew,

In each cheap cut of meat, in roast and stew,

Old-fashioned food she cooked and we ate;

And I saw that they had taken off her rings,

The rings she’d kept once in her dressing-table drawer

With faded snapshots, long-forgotten things

(Scent-sprays, tortoise-shell combs, a snap or two

From the time we took a holiday ‘abroad’)

But lately had never been without, as if

She wanted everyone to know she was his wife

Only now that he was dead. And her watch? –

Classic ladies’ model, gold strap – it was gone,

And I’d never known her not have that on,

Not in all the years they sat together

Watching soaps and game shows I’d disdain

And not when my turn came to cook for her,

Chops or chicken portions, English, bland,

Familiar flavours she said she preferred

To whatever ‘funny foreign stuff’

Young people seemed to eat these days, she’d heard;

Not all the weeks I didn’t come, when she sat

Night after night and stared unseeing at

The television, at her inner weather,

Heaved herself upright, blinked and poured

Drink after drink, and gulped and stared – the scotch

That, when he was alive, she wouldn’t touch,

That was her way to be with him again;

Not later in the psychiatric ward,

Where she blinked unseeing at the wall, the nurses

(Who would steal anything, she said), and dreamt

Of when she was a girl, of the time before

I was born, or grew up and learned contempt,

While the TV in the corner blared

To drown some ‘poor soul’s’ moans and curses,

And she took her pills and blinked and stared

As the others shuffled round, and drooled, and swore…

But now she lay here, a thick rubber band

With her name on it in smudged black ink was all she wore

On the hand I held, a blotched and crinkled hand

Whose fingers couldn’t clasp mine any more

Or falteringly wave, or fumble at my sleeve –

The last words she had said were Please don’t leave

But of course I left; now I was back, though she

Could not know that, or turn her face to see

A nurse bring the little bag of her effects to me.

 

 


 

Sinéad Morrissey

Genetics

My father’s in my fingers, but my mother’s in my palms.

I lift them up and look at them with pleasure –

I know my parents made me by my hands.

They may have been repelled to separate lands,

to separate hemispheres, may sleep with other lovers,

but in me they touch where fingers link to palms.

With nothing left of their togetherness but friends

who quarry for their image by a river,

at least I know their marriage by my hands.

I shape a chapel where a steeple stands.

And when I turn it over,

my father’s by my fingers, my mother’s by my palms

demure before a priest reciting psalms.

My body is their marriage register.

I re-enact their wedding with my hands.

So take me with you, take up the skin’s demands

for mirroring in bodies of the future.

I’ll bequeath my fingers, if you bequeath your palms.

We know our parents make us by our hands.

 

Andrew Motion

From the Journal of a Disappointed Man

I discovered these men driving a new pile

into the pier. There was all the paraphernalia

of chains, pulleys, cranes, ropes and, as I said,

a wooden pile, a massive affair, swinging

over the water on a long wire hawser.

Everything else was in the massive style

as well, even the men; very powerful men;

very ruminative and silent men ignoring me.

Speech was not something to interest them,

and if they talked at all it was like this –

‘Let go’, or ‘Hold tight’: all monosyllables.

Nevertheless, by paying close attention

to the obscure movements of one working

on a ladder by the water’s edge, I could tell

that for all their strength and experience

these men were up against a great difficulty.

I cannot say what. Every one of the monsters

was silent on the subject – baffled I thought

at first, but then I realised indifferent

and tired, so tired of the whole business.

The man nearest to me, still saying nothing

but crossing his strong arms over his chest,

showed me that for all he cared the pile

could go on swinging until the crack of Doom.

I should say I watched them at least an hour

and, to do the men justice, their slow efforts

to overcome the secret problem did continue –

then gradually slackened and finally ceased.

One massive man after another abandoned

his position and leaned on the iron rail

to gaze down like a mystic into the water.

No one spoke; no one said what they saw;

though one fellow did spit, and with round eyes

followed the trajectory of his brown bolus

(he had been chewing tobacco)

on its slow descent into the same depths.

The foreman, and the most original thinker,

smoked a cigarette to relieve the tension.

Afterwards, and with a heavy kind of majesty,

he turned on his heel and walked away.

With this eclipse of interest, the incident

was suddenly closed. First in ones and twos,

then altogether, the men followed. That left

the pile still in mid-air, and me of course.

 


 

Daljit Nagra

Look We Have Coming to Dover!

‘So various, so beautiful, so new …’

Matthew Arnold, ‘Dover Beach’

Stowed in the sea to invade

the alfresco lash of a diesel-breeze

ratcheting speed into the tide, brunt with

gobfuls of surf phlegmed by cushy come-and-go

tourists prow’d on the cruisers, lording the ministered waves.

Seagull and shoal life

vexing their blarnies upon our huddled

camouflage past the vast crumble of scummed

cliffs, scramming on mulch as thunder unbladders

yobbish rain and wind on our escape hutched in a Bedford van.

Seasons or years we reap

inland, unclocked by the national eye

or stabs in the back, teemed for breathing

sweeps of grass through the whistling asthma of parks,

burdened, ennobled – poling sparks across pylon and pylon.

Swarms of us, grafting in

the black within shot of the moon’s

spotlight, banking on the miracle of sun –

span its rainbow, passport us to life. Only then

can it be human to hoick ourselves, bare-faced for the clear.

Imagine my love and I,

our sundry others, Blair’d in the cash

of our beeswax’d cars, our crash clothes, free,

we raise our charged glasses over unparasol’d tables

East, babbling our lingoes, flecked by the chalk of Britannia!


Ciaran O’Driscoll

Please Hold

This is the future, my wife says.

We are already there, and it’s the same

as the present. Your future, here, she says.

And I’m talking to a robot on the phone.

The robot is giving me countless options,

none of which answer to my needs.

Wonderful, says the robot

when I give him my telephone number.

And Great, says the robot

when I give him my account number.

I have a wonderful telephone number

and a great account number,

but I can find nothing to meet my needs

on the telephone, and into my account

(which is really the robot’s account)

goes money, my money, to pay for nothing.

I’m paying a robot for doing nothing.

This call is free of charge, says the robot.

Yes but I’m paying for it, I shout,

out of my wonderful account

into my great telephone bill.

Wonderful, says the robot.

And my wife says, This is the future.

I’m sorry, I don’t understand, says the robot.

Please say Yes or No.

Or you can say Repeat or Menu.

You can say Yes, No, Repeat or Menu,

or you can say Agent if you’d like to talk

to someone real, who is just as robotic.

I scream Agent! and am cut off,

and my wife says, This is the future.

We are already there and it’s the same

as the present. Your future, here, she says.

And I’m talking to a robot on the phone,

and he is giving me no options

in the guise of countless alternatives.

We appreciate your patience. Please hold.

Eine Kleine Nachtmusik. Please hold.

Eine Kleine Nachtmusik. Please hold.

Eine fucking Kleine Nachtmusik.

And the robot transfers me to himself.

Your call is important to us, he says.

And my translator says, This means

your call is not important to them.

And my wife says, This is the future.

And my translator says, Please hold

means that, for all your accomplishments,

the only way you can now meet your needs

is by looting. Wonderful, says the robot.

Please hold. Please grow old. Please grow cold.

Please do what you’re told. Grow old. Grow cold.

This is the future. Please hold.


 

Adam Thorpe

On Her Blindness

My mother could not bear being blind,

to be honest. One shouldn’t say it.

One should hide the fact that catastrophic

handicaps are hell; one tends to hear,

publicly, from those who bear it

like a Roman, or somehow find joy

in the fight. She turned to me, once,

in a Paris restaurant, still not finding

the food on the plate with her fork,

or not so that it stayed on (try it

in a pitch-black room) and whispered,

‘It’s living hell, to be honest, Adam.

If I gave up hope of a cure, I’d bump

myself off.’ I don’t recall what I replied,

but it must have been the usual sop,

inadequate: the locked-in son.

She kept her dignity, though, even when

bumping into walls like a dodgem; her sense

of direction did not improve, when cast

inward. ‘No built-in compass,’ as my father

joked. Instead, she pretended to ignore

the void, or laughed it off.

Or saw things she couldn’t see

and smiled, as when the kids would offer

the latest drawing, or show her their new toy –

so we’d forget, at times, that the long,

slow slide had finished in a vision

as blank as stone. For instance, she’d continued

to drive the old Lanchester

long after it was safe

down the Berkshire lanes. She’d visit exhibitions,

admire films, sink into television

while looking the wrong way.

Her last week alive (a fortnight back)

was golden weather, of course,

the autumn trees around the hospital

ablaze with colour, the ground royal

with leaf-fall. I told her this, forgetting,

as she sat too weak to move, staring

at nothing. ‘Oh yes, I know,’ she said,

‘it’s lovely out there.’ Dying has made her

no more sightless, but now she can’t

pretend. Her eyelids were closed

in the coffin; it was up to us to believe

she was watching, somewhere, in the end.


 

 

Tim Turnbull

Ode on a Grayson Perry Urn

Hello! What’s all this here? A kitschy vase

some Shirley Temple manqué has knocked out

delineating tales of kids in cars

on crap estates, the Burberry clad louts

who flail their motors through the smoky night

from Manchester to Motherwell or Slough,

creating bedlam on the Queen’s highway.

Your gaudy evocation can, somehow,

conjure the scene, without inducing fright

as would a Daily Express exposé,

can bring to mind the throaty turbo roar

of hatchbacks tuned almost to breaking point,

the joyful throb of UK garage or

of house imported from the continent

and yet educe a sense of peace, of calm –

the screech of tyres and the nervous squeals

of girls, too young to quite appreciate

the peril they are in, are heard, but these wheels

will not lose traction, skid and flip, no harm

befall these children. They will stay out late

forever, pumped on youth and ecstasy,

on alloy, bass and arrogance, and speed

the back lanes, the urban gyratory,

the wide motorways, never having need

to race back home, for work next day, to bed.

Each girl is buff, each geezer toned and strong

charged with pulsing juice which, even yet,

fills every pair of Calvin’s and each thong,

never to be deflated, given head

in crude games of chlamydia roulette.

Now see who comes to line the sparse grass verge,

to toast them in Buckfast and Diamond White:

rat-boys and corn-rowed cheerleaders who urge

them on to pull more burn-outs or to write

their donut Os, as signature, upon

the bleached tarmac of dead suburban streets.

There dogs set up a row and curtains twitch

as pensioners and parents telephone

the cops to plead for quiet, sue for peace –

tranquillity, though, is for the rich.

And so, millennia hence, you garish crock,

when all context is lost, galleries razed

to level dust and we’re long in the box,

will future poets look on you amazed,

speculate how children might have lived when

you were fired, lives so free and bountiful

and there, beneath a sun a little colder,

declare How happy were those creatures then,

who knew that truth was all negotiable

and beauty in the gift of the beholder .

 

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